Loosing Sucks

                  First off, I know this is a couple of days late. I forgot about it on Thursday because the only thing we've been doing all week is working on our essays. I told myself I would just write it the next day after our soccer game. Unfortunately, we lost and now our season is over. Like everybody else on my team, I was pretty upset and I was in no mood to try and write a blog post.  

                A few days have gone by and although I'm still pretty upset, I figured I should probably write this post anyway. Our soccer team had a really great regular season, so we really thought we would have a good chance to make it far in the tournament. None of us expected to be out in the first round. Although Freud probably wouldn’t classify this event as the type of trauma that causes our subconscious to use defense mechanisms, I've able to identify some of the behavior that I saw from my team and myself over the last few days.

                There was certainly a lot of displacement, especially right after the game. Cleats and shin pad were slammed onto the turf, and many locker doors in the locker room were shut with an irregularly high amount of force. As I was unloading my car when I got home, a soccer ball fell out of the trunk and I struck it hard into the open garage. For the rest of that night, I suppose you could say that I sublimated a lot of my anger onto the soccer video game FIFA. I didn't bother to change the difficulty at all, so a spent the night dangling and running scores up to the high teens; I showed no mercy.

                As that unfortunate day continues to go further into the past, I'm beginning to realize that that the only defense mechanism left is going to be acceptance. This is hard because growing up, we are always told not to accept defeat and use it to motivate us going forward. Unfortunately there is nothing left going forward for me and Reading Soccer. I'm sure I speak for all the seniors when I say that it sucked to accept that that was the last time we would play for Reading. Loosing sucks, but we have to just accept it and move on.